Non-Perfections

I want to talk about non-perfections. Not flaws, necessarily, mostly because I don't like applying that word to people's characteristics (unless their assholes, in which case I don't care) -just those little things that we see in ourselves that are not "perfect."

I love all the body positivity I see on the internet these days. I really really do. I love seeing people learn to embrace themselves, not caring what other people think about the way they look, and allowing themselves to just be human. But, let's face it, the internet does also let us pick and choose what we show off to the world.

And that's not a bad thing. I am pro-selfies all the way. I love being able to take my own picture and choose how to edit it (or not) and post it for others to see. I love having control over how I am portrayed.

But because I can just show you what I want to, you don't get the whole picture. Sometimes literally. I can show you the side of my face that looks good and doesn't have acne, I don't have to share the way my legs look, my chipped nail polish, or the various faces I make throughout the day.

So because I am lazy and don't quite feel like taking pictures of all that, I am at least going to share a list of some of my non-perfections with you. Because I don't like the idea of people having a false illusion of me.

So.

• I have one crooked canine in my top row of teeth that drives me crazy most of the time which is one of the reasons I hate smiling for pictures.
• My thighs (and my ass if we're being completely honest) are the thickest parts of me. I'm not really a big person, but any excess weight I carry around is in that general area. Sometimes I'm self conscious about it, sometimes I just think my ass looks fabulous. It's an ongoing struggle.
• Sometimes my skin hates me and breaks out everywhere. It's painfully annoying.
• My nail polish is in fact usually chipped despite all my attempts at keeping it neat. The result is usually a grungy angst-ridden teenager effect.
• I make so many faces. Weird, unattractive, dorky faces. I make them when I read, when I watch things, when I talk to people, when I listen to music, when I'm bored... 
• Sometimes I think my forehead is too big. Not all the time, but sometimes I think about it and I hate how much space it takes up on my face. It's ridiculous, I know, but I can't help it.
• There are times where I don't shave my legs for weeks at a time. Mostly because I am lazy and can't bring myself to care enough, especially when it's cold outside. 
• I am moody. Seriously, I can be a moody fucker. I have always been that way. I can go from fine to upset or angry at the flip of a switch.
• I can also be painfully apathetic. I mean, I care about a lot of things and people in the world, but sometimes I get up in the morning and I just don't give a single fuck. It can make me frustrating to be around for sure.
• Sometimes my anxiety is so bad that I can barely function and it's hard for me to talk to people. It's usually not anything personal but it's still taken the wrong way most of the time.
• I probably (okay definitely) spend more time on tumblr than is healthy. Working on it.
• I am way too attached to various fictional characters. I am typically way more interested fictional worlds (of my own creating or not) than I am with real life and real people. I mean, I'm not disinterested with reality, but I've always been an escapist.

So there you go. A list of some of my non-perfections, things you would know about me if we interacted on a regular basis outside of the internet. I wouldn't really call them bad things (well, the anxiety is bad, I'm not a fan) but they're real things that often get lost when I open my web browser.

How about you guys? Any non-perfections you're willing to share?

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