Monday, June 24, 2013

The Waves of Change

This year is filled with much more inner shifting than I thought it would be. And there is so much more to come. I feel like I am in a constant state of change. It's not a bad thing, it's just a bit scary. It makes my anxiety act up. But it's what I need to go through to give my anxiety the boot altogether. 

I am trying to keep it together. My loving boyfriend helps so much, as does the unconditional love of my kitty. Working out helps -I whip my own butt with a workout every day lately. Creating things with my hands helps. Keeping the house clean helps. 

Sometimes change is really exciting. But right now it's terrifying. I know things will be better on the other side of it though, and that is what keeps me together. I don't want it to all be scary and intimidating though. There are a lot of things that are out of my control, but this space is not one of them.

I am thinking of (another) new blog design. Something cleaner and simpler. I am thinking of redoing my sponsorship stuff again. I am thinking of asking for guest posts. I am thinking of a lot of things. We shall see what comes to fruition.

I want to say thank you to everyone who follows me here, anyone who stops by and reads my words, and a big thank you to those of you that have helped to hold me up and support me in some way. Words cannot express the love and gratefulness I feel in my heart for that support.

Things that have made me smile today:
+Winning a giveway on Emma's blog. Such a nice pick me up for my over-emotional day.
+The anti-depression balm I received the ever-wonderful Lottie. Just the smell helps lift my spirits
+The amazing support of my boyfriend as well as comforting hugs and kisses.

Today I repeat my mantra over and over to myself.
I am a child of the Universe.
And I deserve to be here and be happy just as much as anyone else.

Manda Rave


  1. I love your mantra, especially sitting here in a foul mood on my first day back to work after vacation.

    Change is scary, but always so invigorating, too - props t you for being courageous!

    Am super intrigued by Lottie's anxiety balm! I take Bach's Rescue Remedy whenever I'm feeling nervey, but I prefer to support grassroots artisans when I can. :)


    1. I highly recommend Lottie's balm. It smells good and it works wonders. I've taken to rubbing it into my wrists and temples whenever I feel negativity trying to take hold of me. It's very grounding.

  2. *big supportive hugs to you my dear*
    I really feel you on the state of change, I feel as though many of us are going through a big shifting at the moment and it can be so scary, I get frightened too of everything thats to come. I try to think that it will come regardless of fear, and I try my best to trust that what is coming will be for the highest good, any change that is coming is going to wash away anything we don't need. I truly believe that what it coming is for the best, but it does feel like there is a lot of shaking up going on at the moment, and getting rid of the unnecessary whilst trying to truly sort out the necessary can hurt.
    I also find it helps me to think of time as not being actually linear, like how the past, present and future is actually all happening at once. I know I can get really stuck in the mindset of thinking 'oh god what's in the future?', so changing that around and thinking 'anything that is coming, I've already experienced, and I can handle it'. We're put here and it's so confusing, trying to figure everything out, but I truly believe that we're really so amazing, I read a quote earlier saying that we are 'divinity in human form' or 'divinity made manifest as a human', and it really struck me.

    Also thank you so much for your support and love, and I'm so, so glad my balm is helping you and soothing it. May it always bring you love, blessings and healing, and the very best and brightest energy. Much love to you, always ♥

    1. I like the idea of thinking of time as happening all at once. It definitely helps takes some of the stress off the future.
      Shaken is a good word for how I feel. I know it's all necessary and for the greater good of my soul, but I feel so disoriented in the mean time.
      Love to you as well dearest <3

  3. Ah change, it's the best and worst thing that happens to us, often both at once! Try to embrace change and make the best of things, I believe everything happens for a reason, and often the reason is not immediately apparent :)

    1. It is definitely both at once right now. Thank you so much for your support dear *hugs*

  4. *BIG HUG* Change can definitely be scary... and change can be absolutely amazing, as well. My anxiety has been acting up as well, and I've been going up and down a lot this year. I believe it's a very emotionally charged year. I hope you know you can count on me, if you ever need to chat, or vent, about anything or nothing what so ever, I am here for you. We seem so much alike, and I truly know what you're going through. Let me know if I can help in anyway, lovely lady. <3 Thank YOU for being my friend.

    1. Yeah, it seems like everyone is on an emotional roller coaster this year. I can't think of anyone I know offline or on that isn't going through their own thing.
      Thank you so much for being so wonderful, seriously, you're an amazing lady <3

  5. Change, it is a word I use to fear. It can be so scary, but some of the biggest changes for me have been over the past year, and they have ended up being wonderful. I feel like we sometimes have to wade through the super crappy times to get to the good. I am convinced that it always gets better. Lots of love to you on your journey, xoxox.

    1. -gingers crossed for the best on the other side-
      Thanks darling, these changes are scary but I know they're good for me. xoxo


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